My Day- June 14, 2006 (2nd. post of the day!)
My day - 6-14-06
This will be my second post of the day…that is – if I’m able to get it on! Am having lots of trouble-and a lot of others seem to be, also!
Is Mr. Blogger getting tired of having us here…all airing our gripes and groans…all our frustrations being laid out for the world to see…our secrets of our hearts being laid bare!
(Other things being laid bare too, by some- but not me!! :) )
…. But, we’re your invited guests, Mr. Blogger, so please play nice!
Here’s my news of last night and today!
Last night I was overcome with sadness! I was still looking through photo albums, still hoping to find those NY pictures! It’s become an obsession. I don’t know why!
I didn’t find them but …well… looking over my long life was sad! Every album opened represented a little piece of my life…when my kids were little…teenage years…weddings…trips…grandbabies- from birth to teen years and ... GONE!
Pictures of Mom overwhelm me with sadness, still! …It seems all the changes happened after she left us…
My life is like a patchwork quilt…some beautiful pieces go into it- some- not so pretty- some dark and drab - some pieces, silky smooth- others- rough to touch! Overall-it’s sewn together with a fine, decorative stitch, combining the whole thing! All the pieces must stay, just as they were sewn into it as it happened all those years ago …last year… last week… yesterday. I’m adding to it, even now!
Man! I hope these last pieces I’m adding do not ruin the overall project! And what if the stitches start to ravel…?
Had trouble sleeping, as usual last night, but got up early anyway!
Tried to do an upbeat Flag Day post, early today, but was unable to get the pictures on that I wanted to use!
Went shopping. Food- Father’s day stuff for Charles…(because He’s #1 in my life- no matter how depressed I may become!) :)
I also bought myself a CD. It’s Van Morrison ’Moon Dance.’ My son has this but I never had it before! I know it’s good! It will be my music for tonight- until I’m able to sleep in the wee hours!
Also got some more Apple/Cinnamon candles! My house will smell like apple pie for Father’s Day but we will be having Chocolate pie! :) Our Orlando kids plan to come!
I had a nice surprise email from my girls on the cruise! They are having a wonderful time. I’m glad! They will be gone about another week.
OH!! One more thing I wanted to say…and get other’s opinions on what you think…did I do the right thing- or was I stupid!
…As I was loading my groceries into my car, after shopping at Wal-Mart, I was approached by a woman… She was middle aged, (40-+++) dressed ok…not dirty or raggedy.
She held up both hands to show that I need not fear her …she had no purse or bags of any kind with her! She asked me right away if I could spare some money- that she was down on her luck…saying she needed $$ for food! I didn’t take it all in…the story… something about a husband…that she was looking for a job! She didn’t look like the usual down and out street person…she cried! I felt sorry for her-Plus- I just wanted it to be over…
So I gave her some $$ - a few dollars!
Later-I got to thinking that was a quick way for a woman to make a few bucks…and I wondered just how much she had made today!!
More than anything, it added to my feeling of not being in control…
Should I have done that or not?
What would you have done?